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Where do our deceased animals go?

July 11, 2014 in animals and animal communication, The other side, Uncategorized

Where do our deceased animals go?

When we mourn those who have left this world, we may seriously question whether there is life after death. We ask because of ‘love’. Because ‘love’ never dies but lives on. 


  • there really is a ‘Rainbow Bridge’ and this is where beloved animals go.



Some animals linger for a short time before making their way to the Rainbow Bridge. I’ve noticed that animals linger for a couple of reasons. (1) They choose to comfort their human family before heading to the bridge. (2) Interestingly, I’ve come across recently deceased animals that lingered because they were coming back. Yep, reincarnation.

I’m no longer surprised by whom I see clairvoyantly at the Rainbow Bridge. It’s a beautiful home for  animals that had some impact with humans such as pets and some zoo animals for instance.


When a deceased animal crosses the ‘bridge’ he or she will be greeted by deceased members of your soul family such as a parent, aunt, ancestor and other pet/s.   There are usually quite a few beings that show up.


Sometimes the main family member that greets your recently deceased animal companion can be someone that you knew detested animals or your pet.   Things are different in spirit.   We see the truth – we are all one. We see – there is only love.    We experience and give ‘love’,  that we might not have experienced in our life time, such as the unconditional love of animals.


Just like I’ve seen guardians at close proximity around some people before they pass away..the same can be said about our pets.    Guardians…whether it is a deceased parent or other deceased pet/s – they can show up days, weeks…prior to the pet’s death – to assist with transition to spirit realm as well as ‘greeting’ them again.


 So our loved ones don’t just greet us on the other side, but also greet us before we get there.  



When someone is nearing death…we usually gather around to comfort them. So it shouldn’t seem unusual that our beloveds in the spirit world, would also gather around to give comfort. The fact is ‘intuition’ shows – that they are always around us…just at a different frequency.  


Just like people who cross over go through a transition period so do our animal companions.

Some animals at the Rainbow Bridge…maybe in a healing mode… that their life on Earth is over. It is usually healing in regards to how they left this world. Such as the animal that wasn’t wanting to leave but was put down. This isn’t always the case. Some animals are put down due to illness / pain and are ready…while others are not. When they don’t want to leave… they – like humans…spend time in ‘healing mode’ on the other side.


I’ve found it is different to animals that pass very quickly and suddenly. They don’t seem to go through a healing mode but go straight to the lush lands of the Rainbow Bridge. They may though, drop in to say goodbye to their family or linger a little while to comfort their family before heading to the Rainbow Bridge.   We all do meet up again not just in the spirit realm but also via intuition.  


Love does not separate us but is the bridge.





Astro-Scopes starting week of 8th July 2014

July 9, 2014 in Tarot & Angel cards, Uncategorized

Astro-Scopes starting week of 8th July 2014


Beginning of the week:  The Sun with Archangel Uriel.

The Sun angel oracle tarot by Doreen VirtueThere is a real sense of grounding with this card due to some kind of clarity or wishes starting to actualize. At the same time there feels a real sense of divine guidance…whether this is through spirituality or metaphysical. The two (being grounded / divine guidance) have or are coming together. You may have started on a path not realizing it was leading you in a circle – coming full circle.

The message of this card is – Whether you think you have or have not…. done enough work on something such as a project, goal, career, study, family…the message seems to be that…you have! . And the next natural step is about continuing this growth via setting your sights on new goals or your ideas. Now these successes are ones of growth. And the growth can be spiritual, metaphysical, material, friendship/family, self development and so on.

If you think you didn’t do much, there probably was growth in that very way. Growth can be not only physically but mentally, emotional, and even releasing.    In summary – A sense of accomplishing goals in some area of your life that may have come with some trials and, now you can see things coming together. For others – recent experiences have revealed opportunity paths that you are only now noticing because you have come full circle/growth.

Will you ‘explore’ those opportunities/ideas? Know that sometimes with growth comes expansion/new goals or diversifying. You’ve come this far – have confidence in yourself and ideals.



Middle of the week: Ace of Earth

Ace of Earth Angel Oracle Tarot

There is a strong sense of family or business or perhaps a bit of both coming up in this card. It feels very heart based meaning deals with issues that pull at your heart in some way. There is a sense of having to let go of something in order for the new to come in. Yet this new to come in…can feel different because you maybe still thinking or doing in an old way.

So where in your life are you thinking or feeling that you still need some kind of crutch (for lack of a better word) that you don’t need anymore because you have the ability to do it now. For instance – the student who keeps going to the teacher for advice, when the student has already become the teacher but doesn’t realize it because still thinking and acting as if still the student. So take a look at business (work, goals, projects, study, finances) and know that you have the knowledge, experiences and ideas to stand on your own two feet. In family the same applies. The very final but not least ‘message’ of this card is “you are what you think”.

The guides said it so clearly and with such strong emphasis that it is important to think positively and check in with your thoughts. What you think about a lot tends to manifest in various ways. For instance you may actually start believing the thoughts which is not great if they are belittling self. You may begin seeing signs or confirmation of your very thoughts more often in your everyday world and the experiences with others.

If you are keeping wonderful thoughts about you and your goals/friendships/family/money and so on…you tend to make better or wonderful decisions that empower yourself and others. If you are keeping negative thoughts about various issues…you tend to make decisions based more often – purely on negative feelings such as fear, anger, stress, or overwhelm.


End of the week/weekend: Ace of Air and 6 of Air

Six of Air Angel Oracle Tarot Card

Ace of Air Angel Oracle TarotIt feels like the end of this week some of you may be taking a trip. Could be either physically or metaphorically. The outcome of the trip feels unknown and therefore requires from you, a sense of keeping the faith and trusting in yourself and,  that life has your back.

The trip may feel like you are  ‘jumping off of a cliff’.    The card reminds you that sometimes taking a leap of faith can feel that way.


At the beginning of the week Archangel Uriel “Sun” card came through and an aspect of this card was a strong sense of being both grounded (balanced in heart, mind and soul) along with receiving divine guidance.


Trust that if some form of a trip whether literally or metaphorically comes up for you, bringing with it, a sense of ‘icky feelings’…it is only because you are being asked to have faith in taking a step forward. in an area of your life.    Believe in you.   Believe that those in the spirit realm are also doing their very best to draw your attention to some matter… resulting or requiring you to take a leap and have faith in yourself.

Wanting to unwind?

June 20, 2014 in Uncategorized

Has it felt like the last week or so had you wanting to unwind?


And as you unwind all things you could or should be doing came up?


That is kind of what the planetary line up has many of us experiencing right now.


So take heart. Enjoy the winding down and allow it to also bring up priorities for you. It is a time to get clear on what you want in your life and how are you going about making it happen… and sometimes that requires doing some ‘me downtime’.


I’d pay attention to the kind of things you do at this time relating to ‘me downtime / unwinding / relaxing / taking a breather’. What’s in it for you or can pull out of it.


For instance: I’ve been watching dvd’s, something I haven’t done in a while due to working a lot. The selection too have been interesting.


I am number 4, Star Trek Into darkness, Slumdog Millionaire, Twilight, Marigold Hotel, Dances with Wolves. I’ve seen all these movies before and yet I wasn’t interested in getting out movies I hadn’t watched.

I guess I wanted what I already know.


Watching them again felt great! Like the meal that tastes great especially the next day…do you know what I mean.


It was comfort and total bliss watching these characters again. It reminded me too, of aspects of me. Some of the things I like and interests me.


Sci-Fi or Fantasy type stuff that is me.


Watching Slumdog Millionaire had me smiling – yes! life for the characters in the movie was hard, simple yet funny too at times.   Even a difficult life has many moments of laughter.   One of the earlier scenes in this movie showed children playing cricket with sticks etc on a runway for planes. Thus the police were mad and chasing the children and they’re the kind of police that would have no hesitation giving the children a beating. While the children ran from the police they would stop to give the police the fingers – so to speak.


It reminded me so much of a part of my childhood (although nothing like life in the slums) when all the children on my street played on the middle of the road. Sometimes we would play the game…poke fingers at the cars that drive by for fun game. Hilarious times!     A time when a car ride anywhere meant opportunities to make silly faces at cars that pulled up beside or behind ours.


Now as for the Twilight movie… I’ve read the series because my daughter insisted I buy each book as they came out, and she read them over and over, that I felt I really should read them and see what all the hypes about.


Written for teenagers but after the first book… I grabbed the other books to read too. The twilight movie I watched was ‘breaking dawn 1′ which I found hilarious.    I just don’t recall reading the book and finding it that funny.  I mean they really had Bella all skin and bones…not the most romantic thing to see but I couldn’t stop grinning at the creator/director of this movie going all out – in this way.


This Twilight movie had me laughing and reminding me how we can see things in a particular way. Illusions shattered. You weren’t going to see a beautiful Bella throughout the movie but a pretty scary looking Bella.


So all this unwinding made it clear to me that I needed to prioritize my schedule – and block in some silly me times where I could let loose and continue working towards my various goals.   That’s the kind of energy at the moment…wanting to unwind yet knowing this and that goal needs working out.  The goal is to allow yourself the unwinding time and noticing what comes up during that ‘unwinding’ time.      My unwinding time could of been to rest / take naps…or do some exercise but it wasn’t.  It was a reminder to remember I have a silly side and to have more silly type of fun…yet to balance that with my goals/career aspirations.  




In gratitude

April 28, 2014 in Uncategorized

In gratitude.



I’ve felt the pull to support others. Have you?



It is another way of being and experiencing ‘gratitude’. It’s a way of letting go instantaneously your own wants. Sometimes when you have desires or feeling chained  to outcomes…you might just find opportunities or experiences popping up in your world. Yet the opportunities have always been there. So keep a look out for them.   Be a leader…leaders help others, be the change you want to see in your world.



What is one thing you can do this week that leads you to gratitude?  One thing that lets you be the change you want to be and see – in your world?



I know…I’ve posted this image a couple of times now. I just love it.



Gratitude brings peace thebigjournal

Gratitude brings peace



April 26, 2014 in Uncategorized



Charlotte female stray cat


As with people, animals too may take time to heal and trust.
Charlotte and I first met about 2 years ago.  I opened the back door and there she was,  staring straight at me.  Just like in the picture.


I was smitten with her and 2 years later she is still the stray cat sort of.   It has taken a long time to form  trust.  She is her own cat.   I have been able to pat her…but only when she has been busy eating.



Charlotte is very motherly and is kind of the matriarch archetype.
Not so long ago, the communication began to improve between Charlotte and I and it happened unexpectedly.


I was worried about hurricane Lusi’s arrival, thus I  let Charlotte know about the approaching storm.  I passed on the message that she and another stray cat ‘Esmeralda’  may want to come inside.   I said (on the off chance – that she was hearing me) “just come to the front door”.   I left it at that.


Well the day the storm was due… Charlotte, Esmeralda and two tiny  kittens( that I had no idea existed)…were at my front door.   They had practically moved in under the steps.   I was stunned.  I wasn’t expecting kittens.


So although I had been finding it difficult to communicate with Charlotte… there was now no doubt that Charlotte heard me.

Esmeralda female stray


So there they all were, not trusting to come in but trusting enough to come to the front door.  The fact was that I hadn’t thought about what I had communicated to Charlotte.    They were quite vulnerable being out the front of the house…as the front section wasn’t fully fenced.   But Charlotte instigated they be there at the front door, thus they were staying.


Anyways, the storm came and went and all was fine.


Charlotte and I… guess we had both opened up more.   I asked her  how long she had been here?   She gave me her name…”Charlotte”.  As soon as I knew her name, I knew it suited her to a T.


What I’ve noticed about animals and names…is that they have the pet name we call them but also an  energy name.  The energy of Charlotte was her name.      The name is representative of the energy of the animal and isn’t really linked to the same name being used by a person.  It’s the name that most allows me to understand more about her.


As a child one of my all time favorite book’s was Charlotte’s Web.  It’s a story about a spider called Charlotte and how she rescued a pig called Wilbur from heading to the kitchen oven.  They became the best of friends.  When Charlotte passed away there was a sense of how would everyone (Wilbur, the other animals get by), she was like a matriarch.  Well Charlotte passed away because she was a Spider whom had layed  eggs thus nature wise it was her time to pass.  The amazing aspect about this book…was that it could seem so insignificant to humans…(in the story) about the friendships and lives of the animals in the barn.  In particular how very insignificant a tiny matriarch spider was.



So this was the energy of Charlotte the cat.  Her nature and her life story thus far.  Very matriarch, a nurturer and if she were to pass away, it would be quite an impact on the cats such as Esmeralda and so on…she’d leave behind.


If Charlotte’s  life changed such as being re-homed then her name would probably change as well.


Charlotte wasn’t keen on the idea of being re-homed, she’d rather live as a stray.   She is like the matriarch.


But Charlotte was once a pet!


She showed me images of living with an elderly lady.  This had been her life.  Then one day the lady passed away or was just gone.  The lady’s family kicked Charlotte (which they knew was a pet) out of the house.
Animals can go through stress, experience traumatic feelings.  What had traumatized Charlotte or an aspect of the trauma…had to do with being removed from the only home she had ever known.


I know this happens a lot…
A person usually elderly passes away or is moved into rest care.   The family are not interested in the pet and kick it out of the house.
..without realizing the pet goes through similar feelings as a person who has lived in the same home for 30 years and is forced to leave it would feel.
Charlotte was ‘lost’  more than anything else.    I gather quite a few years had gone bye too.
She’s never really gotten over it.  Just like people…animals may not be able to let go although they adjust to a new environment especially to survive.
So, explains why she was not interested in being re-homed.  Yet she pointed out that if it really had to be…she wanted an elderly owner.


I know that I’ll be moving from here sometime this year.   I’d like to be able re-home her or get her  to trust so that I can hopefully re-home her.



Charlotte  has a strong bond with Esmeralda.   They are like best friends.   They also have a partnership of caring and protecting one another, so to speak.  I can’t actually imagine that the two of them could imagine being parted.  Similar to the relationship between Charlotte the Spider and Wilbur the Pig.


it takes time for trust for these cats…for Charlotte.



There’s something really important about animals that a lot of people already get…and others are beginning to realize.  A lot of intuitive or spiritual people get that there is energy, and energy such as laughter, thoughts, pain, suffering and so on…lingers.  There is a belief that (in basic terms) people’s energy actually gathers…like on a collective level (to some degree) and must be dealt with at some point.  How?  I’m not quite sure but I feel on a collective level.


 The concept of ‘we are all one’ is very true.  Animals have feelings.


Millions of animals, in particular I want to point out ‘farm animals’  are living in inhumane/cruel conditions.   They carry the energies of fear, pain and suffering’.


Energy is energy…their energy also gathers on a collective level.


There is no one to blame…it is what it is.


The accession that has been happening for quite a few years now,  will no longer want to have these energies of suffering around so to speak…and people aren’t the only ones that resonate energy.  The accession is turning away from that type of energy to resonate ‘love’ energy for all.




Card Z

April 4, 2014 in Uncategorized


Seven of Earth

From Doreen Virtue Angel Oracle Tarot

The fruits of your labor continue to grow, and harvest is imminent.  Patience is essential as you pause to plan your next steps.  You may feel you have far to go, but don’t forget how far you’ve already come.  Review and acknowledge your progress from a broader perspective.

Anxiety regarding the current situation is unfounded.  Any halt in forward movement is temporary.  This is a good time to rest or vacation to recharge your batteries.

Additional meanings of this card:  Perseverance.  Reaching a milestone.  Considering a new approach.  Unnecessary worry.



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Card P

April 4, 2014 in Uncategorized


Ace of Air

From Doreen Virtue Angel Oracle Tarot

New idea’s now take flight!  Expect great inspiration to come, possibly from an event or situation that had previously troubled you.  Now you see the opportunity to create something amazing, and you’re full of excitement.  Focus your thoughts on your long-term goals and create a plan of action.

You now see the truth of the situation.  Confusion is gone, and clarity has taken its place.  Your new understanding replaces previous misconceptions.   Now you’re ready to move forward.

Additional meanings of this card:  A challenging beginning. Turning a negative into a positive. A brilliant, intellectual solution.



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Card A

April 4, 2014 in Uncategorized

The Wheel

From Doreen Virtue Angel Oracle Tarot

The angels sent you this card because of positive changes occurring in your life.  Expect and enjoy beneficial new opportunities as they present themselves.  This is an optimal time to make big and small changes.  Take the leap with the knowledge that everything will work well for you.

Old blocks are lifting, and everything now moves forward quickly.  If recent events shook your faith, you’ll now see  how they were actually positive for you.  Rapid advancement is now likely for you.

Additional meanings of this card: Good luck.  A happy accident.  Balanced Karma.  A miracle.  A twist of fate. Destiny.


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Home is where the heart is

December 14, 2013 in Uncategorized

I live in the City of sails.  I heard that at least 1 in 4 people in Auckland, New Zealand owns some kind of a boat.  I can’t vouch for that but I’m pretty certain 99% of the kiwi population couldn’t proclaim that they knew of no one who owned a boat.   It is great more people know about the small country set far away from the rest of the world.    Thanks Peter Jackson for bringing the making of  the Lord of the Ring films back home.   He obviously wanted to be back on home soil or perhaps it was the tax cuts.  Maybe both.

city of sails

city of sails

The spirit guides I work with brought up the phrase ‘home is where the heart is’ during a monthly scopes reading I was doing.   I’d love to hear your thoughts on what ‘home is where the heart is‘  means for you.   What it means to me are memories of people, places and events that remind me (especially at Christmas time) just where my heart is – with those that bring me – from that heart space of mine – a sense of joy, acceptance, coziness and lurve.  I will be with immediate family at mum’s house on Christmas day.  It is how it has always been up until last year when a rift took place and separated the family on Christmas day.  It will be nice to have everything back the way it was.


Many people will be deciding even if subconsciously just where their heart / home is during the jolly season.   Perhaps they are an estranged partner and will be spending Christmas without their children or living 1000’s of km’s from their loved ones, or perhaps family are just around the corner and yet it will take every ounce of strength to show up.   For some people it will be spending time with friends that brings them the most joy.



It is good I think, to know that we may have various homes to go to this Christmas and yet it is OK to acknowledge that there maybe one place or one group of people that give us that feeling of being home.     I guess home is where the heart is – isn’t really about a house or family but more so where love and feeling a connection is, for you.  Home is where your heart is.

What meaning does ‘home is where the heart is’ hold for you?

How I see God daily.

September 4, 2013 in Uncategorized

Day 3:


Five of Cups / Nothing = ?


It was a pretty carefree day thus I wondered how I could of seen God today.   ….I kept getting ‘nothing’.    I knew that ‘nothing’ probably meant something because of the energy I felt behind the uneventful day I had been having.   I mean I left work without taking any home with me.  Although I was expecting a call at home from a work colleague about a task she wanted help with.  only to have her call and say…”everything had been taken care of, they got everything done and there was ‘nothing’ I needed to do.   The energy of ‘nothing’.  There was ‘nothing’…. ‘I needed to do.  There was nothing required of me.

Here’s some tidbits about the word ‘nothing’ throughout the centuries.

George Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel: The Absolute is Pure Being. The Absolute is Nothing. The Absolute is Becoming.


Johannes Scotus Eriugena:  God created the world out of “nothing” is to be interpreted as the “nothing” here is synonymous with God.

Descartes: there was matter, and there was extension of matter leaving no room for the existence of “nothing”.


Depending on ones own perspective.   Nothing can be reaching a state of nirvana or the loss of something or someone.  Nothing doesn’t always equal loss as most of us believe.


Nothingness has an energy.   When you sit in or with ‘nothing ’ energy you have a sense of being a huge empty vessel.   An empty vessel spiritually is paramount for spiritual growth.  It is like wiping the slate clean…which takes work spiritually.  To be an empty vessel you have to get rid of you emotional garbage.


I thought the 5 of Cups Tarot Card (Rider Waite) fit nicely.   Here we have a card representing loss of some-kind.   But this card also depicts that although loss has occurred because three cups have split…there are still two cups standing upright.

This is when the ‘beauty of nothinging-ness’  can appear – an empty vessel.    I think this leads to a sense of oneness with the world because you realize you are the world.  There is nothing you need!  I feel this is the difference between being wherever you want to be in life AND happily fulfilled versus being where you want to be in life AND NOT fulfilled and unhappy.

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